Me and BB were hanging out most of the morning- he was in and out of cat naps (until a BITCHIN' nap from 230-5 when I snuck yoga in) while I scoured the Internets. I've been bitching and complaining about our house since I got pregnant and now that I've been home for seven weeks having a taste of freedom, I've been contemplating work and being a SAHM. (I've also killed three ants on my computer screen with my bare hands...I'm a murderer.)
So, the problems:
1. We cannot afford for me to stay home. I don't make a killing (or enough to have a respectable amount in savings, but it's enough to pay the mortgage and my credit card, leaving the cars, insurance, utilities, etc. for Todd.
2. When I decide it's time for subsequent children if I'm a SAHM (who's teaching yoga classes, watching children part time, etc) I won't have a FMLA income.
3. My house is on a hill, with no side walk where cars race up and down the street. Having a baby makes me consider it a little unsafe to walk into the street to get to our cars.
So sure, if I was a SAHM I'd probably be motivated by fear to hustle and make money. BUT the whole point is to stay at home. To be a mom. Right? I don't want to work harder than I do now just so I can stay at home.
I was talking with my sister and we bounced these ideas off each other to determine that I'm probably just bored. I need to at least go back to work before I sell my current life without seeing what it's like with BB added to the mix.
I've been studying for my upcoming Level III YogaFit training in Pittsburgh. Our required reading is Pathways to Joy and the Chakra Balancing Kit. I decided to become certified through YogaFit because I appreciated that it seemed like a more athletic, less what I refer to as a "crunchy hippie" way to practice yoga. They didn't talk much about chanting and meditation in the classes and since I have focus issues, this seemed great for me. Enter level III.
"Study the Chakras?!" I coughed! Pffffft.
So...I'm also a kind of a person who when they sign up for an experience (and in this case, PAY FOR IT, like seriously pay for it...) I really want to get the FULL experience. So study the chakras, I am. And hey, hey. Guess what?
...the shit makes sense. I sometimes feel like my life if one big I told you so.
I won't bore with the gory details but after reading and applying the first two (seven total)- my yoga practice has improved a bit. Practicing things in areas that are lacking in your life, such as focus and concentration in my case, works. I've been working on grounding my feet and lengthening my spine and tucking my pelvis under (Hello, kegels!)
Have you ever blogged and blogged trying to make a point and then feel like you've just written a load of crap? Yea- that's this. God bless anyone who's read it.
So, the problems:
1. We cannot afford for me to stay home. I don't make a killing (or enough to have a respectable amount in savings, but it's enough to pay the mortgage and my credit card, leaving the cars, insurance, utilities, etc. for Todd.
2. When I decide it's time for subsequent children if I'm a SAHM (who's teaching yoga classes, watching children part time, etc) I won't have a FMLA income.
3. My house is on a hill, with no side walk where cars race up and down the street. Having a baby makes me consider it a little unsafe to walk into the street to get to our cars.
So sure, if I was a SAHM I'd probably be motivated by fear to hustle and make money. BUT the whole point is to stay at home. To be a mom. Right? I don't want to work harder than I do now just so I can stay at home.
I was talking with my sister and we bounced these ideas off each other to determine that I'm probably just bored. I need to at least go back to work before I sell my current life without seeing what it's like with BB added to the mix.
I've been studying for my upcoming Level III YogaFit training in Pittsburgh. Our required reading is Pathways to Joy and the Chakra Balancing Kit. I decided to become certified through YogaFit because I appreciated that it seemed like a more athletic, less what I refer to as a "crunchy hippie" way to practice yoga. They didn't talk much about chanting and meditation in the classes and since I have focus issues, this seemed great for me. Enter level III.
"Study the Chakras?!" I coughed! Pffffft.
So...I'm also a kind of a person who when they sign up for an experience (and in this case, PAY FOR IT, like seriously pay for it...) I really want to get the FULL experience. So study the chakras, I am. And hey, hey. Guess what?
...the shit makes sense. I sometimes feel like my life if one big I told you so.
I won't bore with the gory details but after reading and applying the first two (seven total)- my yoga practice has improved a bit. Practicing things in areas that are lacking in your life, such as focus and concentration in my case, works. I've been working on grounding my feet and lengthening my spine and tucking my pelvis under (Hello, kegels!)
Have you ever blogged and blogged trying to make a point and then feel like you've just written a load of crap? Yea- that's this. God bless anyone who's read it.
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